impossible

just came back from school... been thinking about wat jess said earlier today.. i felt that its impossible.. hahaha..an exact amount .. 2 percent?? 3 percent?? have i answered u jess??? hhahah...

ever had that feeling? the feeling.. when u just get in your room..toss your bag on d floor... n jump on the bed.. feels so nice~ i lay there on d bed.. thinking... with claudine turned on in the background..feeling the wind from the fan... i can probably go to sleep.. its like i AM asleep.. but i'm conciouss ( how do spell that again??? >.<) ahhhh... i cant move.. n i hear this really freaky noise.. well.. its not that freaky to me anymore.. i'm rather used to the freakiness.. harharhar... n then i appear sum where else.. n thats where i see my thoughts.. the setting n everything.. seeing the people.. hahaha.. i'm going nuts.. some crazy imagination huh... sighs.. watever...

today we had that taylors thingy.. and i thought to myself whehn he said... i was here with the previous seniors... ahhh.. the days.. they seem so far away.. especially.. ^^ blegh.. i just try not to care anymore..

tired..

barely a few minutes to midnite.. i'm feeling tired.. its been a long time since i last posted anything.. its the 4th month of the year.. 6 months to sPM.. wat have i done so far?? nothing much.. haihz.. i'm screwed.. i'd be lucky if i got good results... i just dunt know.. the mood's not kicking in yet.. nowadays.. i get back.. i toss my bag on the floor.. n all of a sudden.. yea.. i cant focus on other stuff... lots of things have been goin in and out of my mind.. sighs.. maybe there will be one day.. where i start to realise.. realise that, that problem .. is no longer there... no use thinking about it.. wat happened is over. history.. though the toughts have drifted a lil away from mind.. confused.. i dont even know wat i'm typing..

sometime i feel like wanting to do good.. wake up for once.. without hearin shit from people.. early in d morning.. that'll make my day.. for once.. have a peaceful day...i know this story.. thats stuck in my head.. about this person.. who owned a small restraunt .... he had problems of his own... really bad financial problems.. he was really.. sad....depressed n had a troubled mind.. one night he sat at his restraunt.. just sitin there.. thinking.. suddenly.. a beggar.... came n asked for sum food.. without hesitation.. the man gave him some food.. n even sum money out of his own pocket..with the problems of his own.. none would have thought he would do such a thing...but he did it in the end..even at troubled times.. take the time to think.. n do a good deed.. do good.. n be a someone..

its late.. hah.. i hope u realise.. the thoughts of u still linger in my mind..