last weekend was awesome, i had a great outing.. went to bars the mainstream crowd would never have thought about at all.. the plan was to go to 21 bars, ended up with only 2 hahah.. but we had a lot to drink and met alot of people.. all in all.. fun!




Never saw the chemistry that was there with you and me
Its been a long time coming

It’s freaking me out, that I didn't see
That you're so damn hot girl, It's just crazy
And without a doubt I still can’t believe
That you were right there in front of me

Never saw the chemistry that was there with you and me
It’s been a long time coming

Just waiting on an angel to take me out of my hell
I’m falling for you
Just DROPPING out of thin air
You came out of nowhere right out of the blue
When heaven sent you

Night after night, when I didn’t sleep
But that was before you lay beside me
When all of my demons were dancing with me
I’m glad you came down ‘cause I was in too deep

Never saw the chemistry that was there with you and me
It’s been a long time coming

Just waiting on an angel to take me out of my hell
I’m falling for you
Just DROPPING out of thin air
You came out of nowhere right out of the blue
When heaven sent you

Just waiting on an angel to take me out of my hell
I’m falling for you
Just DROPPING out of thin air
You came out of nowhere right out of the blue

Just waiting on an angel to take me out of my hell
I’m falling for you
Just DROPPING out of thin air
You came out of nowhere right out of the blue

Right out of the blue
When heaven sent you
Right out of the blue
When heaven sent you


I was just listening to this song by hinder.. and i thought of posting it up.. i just liked a few words.. thats all heheh...






''Sitting beside me, she laughed. I told her then, that she had different smiles to her. The one I loved most was when she smiled and twitched her nose at the same time. That smile was one I was longing to see everyday, it always seemed like a new reason to be there beside her..''

''I held her. She wondered and I told her that this might be the last time I'll ever hold her again. It turned out to be just that. I can remember this so clearly. To some it may be several years ago, to me it happened yesterday. It always happened yesterday. Its a recurring thought that still haunts me till this day. Today, I barely know her. She died somewhere inside but the silhouette of her face remains, she appears now and again in the distance, in the corner of my eye. I never fail to turn around and assure myself that it is just a ghost.''


Lately, I've found myself prone to outbursts of anger. This is something new for me and I just do not know what triggered this part of me to awake. Perhaps it was a sudden emptiness somewhere that can be blamed but I am learning to vent this part of my persona by indulging myself in vigorous activity. Perhaps, I just can't get over being raged by the acts of a certain few. Whatever it is, I know this is just a phase in my life.

I find it funny, to stress myself over unnecessary things. My head is poisoned with random thoughts of confusion. The thoughts in my head are overlapping each other. I remembered, this used to drive me close to insanity one year. I came to realise, I am most at peace when I am with them, and when I am holding a pencil, sketching.

i love days like these.. sudden, random, beautiful and especially memorable..


as for whats new so far?

i have achieved what i considered one of my yearly goals this year.. and that is to get my arse to Melbourne... and regrets? no..

the wind blows a new direction.. no way in hell, can i turn back now.. wonderful.. beautiful, glorious.. matchless in every way... i thank you for helping me... bringing me here.. I'm in debt.. u are my king.. my saviour...

its been around 8 weeks now i have been in Melbourne... every moment has been taken in... i wont forget.. i had the best times of my life right here.. and i hope for it to continue.. damn the demons from Sydney... and i hope they wont follow me here..

here's a random thought of the moment... ''u can either be smart.. or seem really desperate and opportunistic to go after someone with money''... i heard that from a passerby telling his female friend.. oh wells..






did i forget to mention.. I'm pessimistic about hopefulness.. hahah there is no such thing as hopefulness when it comes to people... i let it stay in shallow waters.. disappointment is at the end of the tunnel.. for now..