Monday, April 20, 2009

My hell..

i face two pathways.. i cannot decide which to take..

one, leads to being idle and suffering but better for a cause..

the other..

leads to happiness but a step down from my Haven..

sighs... God can only decide for me.. whether or not.. he lets me..

Sunday, April 19, 2009

i've learnt a new lesson.. actually.. more of a realisation... the friends i knew i had.. were all just a play.. at least i view it like that.. i want to..

i feel like i am trapped.. unable to crawl out.. there is just that barrier infront of me... too tall for me to climb... i want to reach my haven...

that bastard..


get the fuck over it.. u constantly remind me so much of that period.. u pissed me off n ruined everything ...


new things i have discovered about myself.. i hate anime.. i hate mmorpgs...well.. not all.. i hate the idea of sitting infront of a computer all day.. i hate babysitting...(unless of course they're my kids) i hate people who pretend to not want to eat and then later binge on chocolates and sweet snacks..(wtf... these people have a serious case of mental illness not yet discovered).. i finaly can tell when people are lying(serious cases).. and the obvious.. i hate people who act like ''friends'' ..i finaly appreciate the smaller things in life that i have taken for granted..

what i do like now... my own space.. solitude.. cleaning(0.o'') having not to think about #%*@)$()@T^@&)$*) all the time.. son of B**ch!!

1 month plus left.. and i hope.. i can get the hell out...