just me..

last weekend was awesome, i had a great outing.. went to bars the mainstream crowd would never have thought about at all.. the plan was to go to 21 bars, ended up with only 2 hahah.. but we had a lot to drink and met alot of people.. all in all.. fun!

Never saw the chemistry that was there with you and me
Its been a long time coming

It’s freaking me out, that I didn't see
That you're so damn hot girl, It's just crazy
And without a doubt I still can’t believe
That you were right there in front of me

Never saw the chemistry that was there with you and me
It’s been a long time coming

Just waiting on an angel to take me out of my hell
I’m falling for you
Just DROPPING out of thin air
You came out of nowhere right out of the blue
When heaven sent you

Night after night, when I didn’t sleep
But that was before you lay beside me
When all of my demons were dancing with me
I’m glad you came down ‘cause I was in too deep

Never saw the chemistry that was there with you and me
It’s been a long time coming

Just waiting on an angel to take me out of my hell
I’m falling for you
Just DROPPING out of thin air
You came out of nowhere right out of the blue
When heaven sent you

Just waiting on an angel to take me out of my hell
I’m falling for you
Just DROPPING out of thin air
You came out of nowhere right out of the blue

Just waiting on an angel to take me out of my hell
I’m falling for you
Just DROPPING out of thin air
You came out of nowhere right out of the blue

Right out of the blue
When heaven sent you
Right out of the blue
When heaven sent you

I was just listening to this song by hinder.. and i thought of posting it up.. i just liked a few words.. thats all heheh...

''Sitting beside me, she laughed. I told her then, that she had different smiles to her. The one I loved most was when she smiled and twitched her nose at the same time. That smile was one I was longing to see everyday, it always seemed like a new reason to be there beside her..''

''I held her. She wondered and I told her that this might be the last time I'll ever hold her again. It turned out to be just that. I can remember this so clearly. To some it may be several years ago, to me it happened yesterday. It always happened yesterday. Its a recurring thought that still haunts me till this day. Today, I barely know her. She died somewhere inside but the silhouette of her face remains, she appears now and again in the distance, in the corner of my eye. I never fail to turn around and assure myself that it is just a ghost.''

Lately, I've found myself prone to outbursts of anger. This is something new for me and I just do not know what triggered this part of me to awake. Perhaps it was a sudden emptiness somewhere that can be blamed but I am learning to vent this part of my persona by indulging myself in vigorous activity. Perhaps, I just can't get over being raged by the acts of a certain few. Whatever it is, I know this is just a phase in my life.

I find it funny, to stress myself over unnecessary things. My head is poisoned with random thoughts of confusion. The thoughts in my head are overlapping each other. I remembered, this used to drive me close to insanity one year. I came to realise, I am most at peace when I am with them, and when I am holding a pencil, sketching.

i love days like these.. sudden, random, beautiful and especially memorable..

as for whats new so far?

i have achieved what i considered one of my yearly goals this year.. and that is to get my arse to Melbourne... and regrets? no..

the wind blows a new direction.. no way in hell, can i turn back now.. wonderful.. beautiful, glorious.. matchless in every way... i thank you for helping me... bringing me here.. I'm in debt.. u are my king.. my saviour...

its been around 8 weeks now i have been in Melbourne... every moment has been taken in... i wont forget.. i had the best times of my life right here.. and i hope for it to continue.. damn the demons from Sydney... and i hope they wont follow me here..

here's a random thought of the moment... ''u can either be smart.. or seem really desperate and opportunistic to go after someone with money''... i heard that from a passerby telling his female friend.. oh wells..

did i forget to mention.. I'm pessimistic about hopefulness.. hahah there is no such thing as hopefulness when it comes to people... i let it stay in shallow waters.. disappointment is at the end of the tunnel.. for now..

My hell..

i face two pathways.. i cannot decide which to take..

one, leads to being idle and suffering but better for a cause..

the other..

leads to happiness but a step down from my Haven..

sighs... God can only decide for me.. whether or not.. he lets me..

i've learnt a new lesson.. actually.. more of a realisation... the friends i knew i had.. were all just a play.. at least i view it like that.. i want to..

i feel like i am trapped.. unable to crawl out.. there is just that barrier infront of me... too tall for me to climb... i want to reach my haven...

that bastard..

get the fuck over it.. u constantly remind me so much of that period.. u pissed me off n ruined everything ...

new things i have discovered about myself.. i hate anime.. i hate mmorpgs...well.. not all.. i hate the idea of sitting infront of a computer all day.. i hate babysitting...(unless of course they're my kids) i hate people who pretend to not want to eat and then later binge on chocolates and sweet snacks..(wtf... these people have a serious case of mental illness not yet discovered).. i finaly can tell when people are lying(serious cases).. and the obvious.. i hate people who act like ''friends'' ..i finaly appreciate the smaller things in life that i have taken for granted..

what i do like now... my own space.. solitude.. cleaning(0.o'') having not to think about #%*@)$()@T^@&)$*) all the time.. son of B**ch!!

1 month plus left.. and i hope.. i can get the hell out...

Can you?

Ah... since i havent done anything 'proud' yet.. i must as well write down the things i wanna do for this year!!

Things to accomplish before the end of 2009..

1.Academics

1.1 Get great results for my last semester of year 1..
1.2 Proceed to 2nd year with the same rhythm..
1.3 Have to add later!! hahah.. still uncertain in 2nd year.. LOL

2.Be menshealth FIT

2.1 Do a 100 pushups consecutively..
2.2 Do 300 squats consecutively..
2.3 Bench press 300lbs..
2.4 Try to own pull ups..
2.5 Lose 15KGs..
2.5 Achieve less than 10 percent body fat..

3.Dont fuck around with the @(#*%@%@)#(@) RTA..
4.Get FFXIII!!!!! the whole collection ..
5.Get a part time job i am happy with..
6.Be a better person.. (like wtf... i dont know what else to write.. >< haha)

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MORE PICS!!! MAUHAHA

this might sound gay.. but.. this is sooooooooooooooooooo cute!!! man...!!!

talk about interacial..h hahahaha

Merry Christmas,Happy New Year and GXFC!!!!!

SO a year's passed... exams next week... going back after the exams.. and just have to post these pictures.. coz they are so.. EFFING CUTE!!!!

haa look at this one