It is the new year, 2007.. shout out to everyone I know.. happy new year.. for those whom I've not wished.. don't take it personal.. lol.. anyways� a lot happened over the passed few days since .. I last updated..

Ok.. the first thing I have got to tell you guys.. the barbeque ''party'' at ken hings place.. don't take it personal dude, but I have honestly got to say.. it wasn't very .. party-ish.. me and joe arrived late.. as usual.. knowing him.. punctuality isn't his best side.. next time I drive!! Hahah.. jk la joe.. sorryz... nyways.. we reached the place.. at 830.. 8:30 PM!!! Can u believe that???? It starts at 730.. and we arrived an hour late.. and yet.. the first thing that came through my mind .. was.. so.. I guess we are not the only ones who are late.. kim hai said.. oh.. 7 ppl FFK.. so I was like -.-''.. right.. and the fire in the pit.. haha.. its so .. ok let me put it this way.. I can put my hand over the ember .. and a sauna would feel hotter.. warmer.. however u put it.. ok.. wat can u cook with that?? They were warming the chicken wings more then cooking it.. haha.. so me n joe.. took about 45mins to make a real bbq pit.. this time.. it was hot.. and we did our sad lamb chops.. this is the perfect example of DON�T EXPECT TO0 MUCH FROM SOMETHING/SOMEONEOR U WILL.. I MEAN WILL get DISSAPPOINTED.. I KNOW.. I have been hurt a lot � anyways.. disappointed I was indeed.. sighs.. It was like chewin rubber.. hah� then came count down.. we rushed to a point where ken hing said.. ''don�t worry.. from here u can see everything clearly'' that was wat I was told anyway.. n yes.. when I typed this.. u know whats comin.. all we saw�. More then HEAR.. was the fire works.. hahaha.. goin off behind the flats.. oh well.. happy new year..

Alright.. 2nd thing.. I was reading blogs rite one day.. and some posts I come across.. are either disturbing, annoying, or just plain omg I cant get a load of this crap anymore.. but lately.. I have noticed.. people tend to just write about anything small that comes by.. I mean.. I didn't know that every other day.. some would write shit like.. ''OMG, I saw an ANT thismornin.. it was crawling all over.. the funny thing is y was there only 1 ant.. usually there is a whole army of them.. the ant was actually��'' u know where I m going with this.. just an example of how little things people can notice.. but cant notice the BIG things that are happening around them.. get real dude.. haha..

Alright.. yesterday was shings birthday.. man.. I salute u.. I hope u become sum1 really successful in life haha.. so I can tell people.. I knew him when we were in school.. ;)
U see peeps.. people like him.. there should be more.. hahah � no I m not just flattering or complimenting him because of any disturbing reasons.. I just find him.. a real gentleman.. ;) anyways.. I�m not gonna talk about wat happened.. before the dinner.. haha.. I m just gonna say.. that hope u enjoyed dinner.. n the cake.. aiight? Peace..

Ok.. lets talk about first impressions or impressions whatever .. this is wat got me really ticked.. like FUCK pissed.. I�m not the type of guy .. who uses vulgarity much.. unless its for joking matters� but .. shyt.. after� going through all that� FUCK U!

I mean.. I for one.. admit.. am bad at smiling.. ok.. BAAAAAD.. ask Emmalynn.. most of my pics.. are 'garang'.. coz when I smile.. I REALLY ADMIT.. look like a jack ass.. T,T I'm not built for smiling.. only now I've been 'trainin' to smile properly.. my dad says.. u look more decent.. don�t show that looong face everywhere you go.. I was like.. I�m just my usual self.. not sad or pissed.. that's how I look!!! Yea� I'm not pissed at my dad.. he was just expressin himself about how he felt about his son's preparing to meet clients and shyt.. its wat others think ya know.. I hate it when people have nothing better to think but to think about how not-up-to-my-standard-or-taste-watever-la.. someone really is.. may it be someone close to you.. someone used to be close or friend or whatever.. come on man.. keep it to yourself. Its not making my life any easier.. just fuck off.. and keep your thoughts to your self.. and people.. one thing my dad has ever thought me.. is to always keep your cool.. you can n will meet asswipes in society.. when u eventually meet sum1 like that.. play along.. ;) right.. so.. don�t go around shoving your temper into other innocent peoples face.. I don't believe I have ever done that.. have anyone ever seen me like really MAD?!!? I mean like screw the �gangsterwannabes�.. u lot should go to hell.. who u trying to show off too.. u�re worse then roadkill.. u know who you are.. girl guy.. everyone has probably done it before.. I have to confess.. I do, do that .. not to my friends.. but my family.. I�m a dick.. fine.. I�m sorry.. bad habit.. I'm tryin to change.. only because I know that my family understands each time I m pissed.. unlike.. people out there.. who think to themselves.. ahhhh wtf..

I'm not bothered anymore about wat u think.. ok.. get of my face.. I don't even know why I bother typing all this shit.. maybe I'm just pissed.. I might smile at you.. but like everyone else.. its F(*$(@*#)@#)@K u inside.. this is why.. I categorize the people I know.. as SOCIAL-LITES and FRIENDS .. like the word LOVE .. the word friend has been misused.. friends are like.. ah.. go to my hi5.. I�ve got my own definition.. I only have a handful of friends.. my sis is like.. 'wow.. u have so many friends..' I tell her.. u got to know who are friends.. and who are just.. there.. haha.. like wat Naim told me to tell people who backstab him, before..'I don�t give a shit about wat you think about me'.. I have learned to live by that too.. except .. mine is more of.. I don�t give a @$*&(@ about wat u think about me.. unless you�re sum1 I really care� hah.. just to let u know.. humans.. are selfish.. we want everythin to go our way.. all the time. Without fail.. probably *note the probably. Don�t go all� fuck.. that�s not the reason.. this is just my pOV* the reasons y people get pissed is becoz things do not go their way.. hmmmm� well. the world does not revolve around u alone.. get that into your *@#$&@( head..

So.. peeps.. know your people.. who are your real friends.. and who are just there for socializing.. one I just call ''socialites''.. I once read this quote.. ''surround yourself with people u know that will lift u higher'' I think .. oprah winfrey said that.. yea.. salute her..so If u see me around u .. u know wats going on ;)

it is true.. there are some people.. who seem to be old enough for u to think.. hey.. you're worth talking to.. but u realize.. even a 10 year old can think better.. one FRIEND I have is only form 1 now.. she has already gained my respect.. because she is like.. understanding.. a thinker.. we have a lot in common..and most of the things she talks about makes so much sense and have never realized before.. I'm just amazed that at that age.. she can sound older then all my socialites.. heck.. some of my 'friends' sound like lil bastards.. well.. like wat some1 I knew always says.. ''huh.. uneducated''..

I never really got a chance to express this thought.. but.. after SSG.. there are only a teaspoon full of people who I wanna keep contact with.. my friends.. u guys.. brighten my life and erase the darkness.. love you guys..

in the end.. just wanna say $(*@($ U� I don�t have to bother saying who it is.. not worth staining my blog with your name.. ^^ have a nice day..

i USED to think highly of u, so much so.. that i've amired u..

ooooo another thing i wanna add.. 'people like you.. make people say we are 3rd world..''