month of illnesses...

i dont know why.. but this past few days i've been feeling real shyty.. i've been coming down with colds and fevers... usualy.. i'd get through it in a few days.. but its getting worse.. hope its nothing much though... hmm... its been awhile since i last posted.. heck.. i was kinda lazy.. with the way my internets been acting.. my comps lucky i turned it on..hahah... i came back from langkawi n penang a few days ago.. it was fun to b honest.. i actualy went there to do two things.. two main objectives.. one which i failed ... n another which i almost managed to complete.. haha.. but still failed .. T.T ... i got jays album.. about .. a week ago.. or 1 n a half weeks.. forgot la.. anyways.. i just got the poster that came with it too.. other then that.. my fav aunt is back for two weeks.. yes.. the same aunt that made all that tiramisu during my open hse...

for the past few months.. I myself.. admit.. that I am really happy... most of the things have been going one way.. and its good...in the past.. i've been through many paths.. few that have made me real sad, some which left me feeling sorry n few that has even made me feel anger.. anger becoz of hurting some ppl close to me.. for that i really wanna kick myslelf in the head.. what i've done is obviously ireversible.. the things i posted sometimes on this blog... if anyone found it hurtful or insulting or however u feel that has caused negativity.. all i can do is.. saying sorry... like i said before.. every bad thing i do.. i always feel like kicking myself.. any insults or cursing thrown at me.. hell. i'd just take it..coz i think i really deserve them.. for those who cant forgive me... i hope one day.. you'll come to realise... how much i regret.. *note this isnt really what i do everyday.. saying sorry.. i really hate saying sorry.. for some reason.. it hurts.. coz if i say sorry.. it'll mean i've done something that has caused much anger/sadness/etc...

somehow.. i just feel like saying this.. been along time since i said this actually.. ''follow your heart''.... hahaha... weird..